The Art of Discovering My Passion

I have never been the type of person who came out the womb knowing what I wanted to do as a career. I have passing interests, but nothing so concrete that I've enjoyed any work that I've done. Now that I'm going into my 34 year of life however...I feel the pressure to figure something out for myself. What do I hope to accomplish for my 34 year? What goal am I going to set for myself and how easily will I either attain or let it go?! So my current interest is all things interactive on the computer...here are the goals I am setting for myself:
1. Go back to school for marketing and writing
2. Continue to network online
3. Explore topics that are really of interest to me
4. Believe that whatever I dream is nothing compared to what I could really ever have!

Actively Participating...

So one of my New Year resolutions is to more actively participate in my life. I feel that there are times when I'm way more reactive than proactive and this has got to stop! :) I want to be able when someone asks me about my hobbies to thoroughly answer the question. With actual hobby's!

I love interacting with people, but that sometimes is more to my detriment than any benefit. I'm looking for benefits in 2009. For example, I want to exercise more. It is a solo activity, but gives me a lot of me time to really think and come up with a game plan. I'm going to be 34 this year...40's not that far off. What am I waiting for?!!

So my question to u is...what are U waiting for? What will make u disconnect electronically and connect realistically?

What in the hell?!!

I was reading the news yesterday...on Christmas Day...about a man who dressed up in a Santa outfit, went to his in-laws home during a holiday party and shot the place up including children. He set the house on fire, went home and killed himself. How do you get so wrapped in in hatred and angst that you would kill anyone, much less shooting children IN THE FACE? Do people not realize how close to the edge they are? And where are the friends that are supposed to ground these individuals? Family members?!! Why is mental illness so damn prevelant yet so swept under the rug in American society?! I could be the next victim...U could be the next victim! But instead we chose to befriend and than ignore the obvious signs that these people aren't playing with a full deck and really, seriously need some help! And what does that say about us that we would rather be "cool" than confrontational when it could save a life?! smdh...damn shame....

B.Scott

I love him. Period. I was going through my subscriptions on YouTube the other day and noticed that quite a few people had added him. So I clicked...AND FELL IN LOVE! He is hilarious, brutally honest, very LA (though not from there), God fearing and 100% himself...at all times! I have developed a whole new vocab just watching him..."Oh no ma'am!", "Oh lawd have mercy, Kelly Clarkson, Eddie Murphy!" and my all time favorite...the screaming banshee references!!

It is so refreshing to be able to see someone that can vlog about his daily life and still come away with the feeling of being blessed and highly favored. He is right...his steps are ordered and I truly wish him the best! Below are some of my favorite clipse!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7oNcDqnCwCs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gAHlM-NHUXA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2GZP9BVrec
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WuVil7PURhY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgzCh6pCrG8

Enjoy!!

Ateyaa's Hair Care Regime

I watched this YouTube video about a young lady by the name of Ateyaa and thought I would give it a try. I did adjust her routine a little though. I wash with the Shampoo, followed by the 2 Minute Reconstructor. I than put the Leave In Conditioner, Keratin and Green Tea Restructorizer and an anti-frizz gloss in my hair. I wrap it wet...let it dry and than flat iron. I am currently on week...3 I believe. I LOVE MY HAIR!! lol...you can't tell me anything right now! My goal is to have my hair healthy in 09...don't care too much about the length. I'll keep ya updated!!

The Hotness...That Fiyah!!

Ok so I loooooooove music. Thought I would make a list of the newest, latest, hotness!!

As of December 23, 2008

Anthony Hamilton "The Point of It All"
Excellent CD...classic Hamilton. Very soulful and heartfelt lyrics. He still keeps his music contemporary while leaning heavily on different musical styles. Favorite songs right now are "Diamond In The Rough", "Please Stay" and the first single "Cool". I'm sure he'll get looked over...as all real artists do, but if you enjoy real music...GOTTA GET IT!

Q Tip "The Renaissance"
Loved it from the first time I heard the single "Getting Up". I am a huge fan of Tribe...and this CD though a solo effort from my man is in line with Midnight Marauders...which is what I've been looking for for like...EVA! lol...great CD. Great vibe. He has fantastic duets with Raphael Saadiq, Norah Jones and D'Angelo which are all my top cuts on the CD. Only song I'm really fast forwarding is "Move".

Ludacris "Theater Of The Mind"
I like Luda...he's good music to run around listening to or get hyped while at work. You will never walk away from a Luda album feeling more enlightened, but its good booty shaking music. I like "Do The Right Thing" and "Everybody Hates Chris". Good junk music...if you have an extra $12...I would recommend a purchase:)

We Fight/We Love

Have u ever got so caught up in emotions that u lose sight of things? You're fighting so much with someone that ur points become mute cuz all u do is argue...You get so caught up in the lovely feelings of love that ur vision of who that person really is gets blurry?